Tag Archives: depression

Overload

This is a bit of a rant, you may disagree with it, and that’s fine… There is a friend of mine, a good friend, a friend I like very much, and with whom I share a great many foundational moral … Continue reading

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10 years down the Lane

Ten years ago this month I published my first novel. I wrote it in July the year before, then spent a year redrafting it several times, while trying to convince myself it wasn’t just a mid-life crises project. I had always wanted to write a novel, I been writing for the better part of three decades, but now I had actually written one. It was finished it was done , it was as good as I could make it. The only thing left to do was to send it out into the world. It was terrifying… Continue reading

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Caves

I am stood in the mouth of a cave. The cave is behind me. The cave is always behind me. I am not always stood in the mouth of the cave. It is my cave. Sometimes I take a step … Continue reading

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Masks

This is a post about masks derived from an old posts about masks from 2017. In 2017 I was still writing the first Hannibal Smyth novel, COVID was yet to be a thing and I was not the same person … Continue reading

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The place I write from…

I like my anger, without it I am not sure who I am
I bottle it up in tight little jars. Seal it within myself.
Turn it, mould it, hammer it and temper it.
Then, when it can not be held down any more. When it has been refined to a glowing edge. I use it, and poor it into words.
My anger becomes creation, focused it becomes a positive force Continue reading

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When a chap is not a chap…

An internet friend reminded me the other day of an important lesson we all need to take on board and remember. When I say all I am talking about 49.9% of the population though the core message applies to us … Continue reading

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I’m not good, but who is.

When I was a kid at Pudsey park on the outskirts of Leeds, just across from the abandoned Traction Engine steam roller, in the main play ground there was a Helter-Skelter. It was a proper Helter-Skelter, a huge wooden construction. … Continue reading

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Quotes for 2020 #6

As its not just a new year, but a whole new decade. I thought among all the other things I do here I would do a daily series of quotes from my favourite authors. Just for the hell of it… … Continue reading

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Down Days… And uplifting words

I have on occasion written posts about my occasional struggles with depression. I don’t do this very often, but when I do they tend to be very personal and hard to write. Why I write them is because it is … Continue reading

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From whence I write…

The place I write from is not a happy place. This was a lesson learn the hard way, but a lesson learned hard, is a lesson learned well. But all the same it is a bitter kind of lesson. Writing … Continue reading

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